Dependable Gods?

they promise...happiness, stature, satisfaction. they dont really bring you anything. or whatever is attained is hollow and meaningless.

You're Mine

because i am god, your personal god, the holy of israel, your saviour

The Only God There Is

maybe he thought if he got war going with jerusalem that ethiopia wouldnt attack him. hezekiah goes to god and says hes right, right but now he comes against you the real god and you will not be defeated.

Pictures OF Restoration

none of the healing is speaking to me. what i like about the road is the fact its there. hes on his way! hell save you! i guess i like that because its true and awesome and i guess just a good reminder. hes on his way. that tells me that what i want from god is for him to come.
god im just tired. my brain just feel like its not working thats why i ask for restoration of energy as im going to sleep. i know its not serious or spiritual but i just want to sleep right now.
gosh again bad translation and its just not appropriate for its intended audience.

Thinking That Horses Can Help

we are a stiff necked people. we strive to do everything on our own and certainly we would not turn to god for help. do we believe he can? yes. do we think he can? no. do we even think about god? no. we look to him last because we set our eyes away from him. we get caught up looking at our trouble instead of our savior. and we doubt. doubt that god can save us from our circumstance. that he wil. that if we call upon his name he will answer. its not a matter of understanding sovereignty for surely we never could. its a matter of accepting it. its hard enough to ask for help but then we have to accept it...if i lived every moment in complete surrender to god i would probably be in a scarier circumstance. but that fear is calmed in gods arms that are around me. god will take care of me. but thats scarier than everything else. because i could not imagine or comprehend how he will pull it off. but he will. its teh unknown. thats what prevents us from looking to god for help. because we think we know how to help ourselves but when it turns out we dont know., god knows. but i dont know what he knows and thats hard...ive tried everything i can think of now its gods turn, but what will he think of? eep!

A Strong God

he punishes the leviathan so that its thrashing as it lives and then he kills it. he waters the vine and watches over it. and pulls up any weeks to get rid of them. he offers safety for the vine. i dont see myself in this other than calling(?) to god. not for safety but for life. i feel confident that god will be that for me.
god you have seemed angry to me..that one time but since you havent been angry. upset but not angry. but you have always been caring. and i get it. i understand why you would feel so. i would be ok even if you were angry with me. i deserve that. but but because you care about me you dont give me what i deserve and i say thank ya big big.
my god is mighty to save. that means strong and tender. brutal to the enemies and loving to me.because that is what is required to save someone. im not shocked by it. it is just a comforting reminder that god is there for me to take refuge in.

God Encounters

i dont remember why i didnt do this days. probably tired and lazy. maybe i felt like i did enough for that day i think i spoke all 3 services. ehhh. whatever. looking back now it just makes me laugh that i was going through song of solomon while i was battling desire for hannah.

The Peaceable Kingdom Of God

its a cool picture that a small child will tend to large animals. that neither human or animal will hurt or kill. the earth will bleed living knowledge of god. to be in that knowledge. that kingdom. that life in god. to jsut know. to be in that peace and know.
god i just see how you created us to be. to dwell in your peaceful kingdom. no threats. just peaceful existance, with you! that we wont have fear. just the living knowledge of our living god.

Burning Off Sin

what areas could be refined to better serve god. my flippant thoughts. i get so distracted and lose focus. my attitude isnt always positive but rather than the few negative times it should be willing.
being commissioned to serve and knowing it will be fruitless. ok not fruitless but isaiah sent to a people to proclaim to them knowing from the start they they wont understand and accept and repent but instead they will all die. but in the words of ezekiel, "i did as i was commanded". oh lord, that you would command me and i would be willing. when you are looking for someone ill raise my hand.

Love Is Invincible

i like the woman saying wear my love around your neck and finger. and that love is for one person only so of coarse the man will protect what is his. i just like the statements of taking ownerships and responsibilty for love.
i believe that god has someone for me. i think i wont find her (sometimes) i believe god has appointed a time. i think it cant come soon enough. i believe god loves me more than that. i think i am not worthy of it. god thinks i just need to trust in him and he will show his affections for me. god wants my love and my devotion. and you have it. why am i greedy? why is it not enough or fullfilling? those are the lies. it is enough to fulfill my heart. i am my lovers and my lover is mine. place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm.
the twitterpatedness is returning...oh god be my lover and let me desire burn for you.

God Has Eyes For You

i would like that good sees me as one that looks his way.
i couldnt grasp how loved i am by god. and thats amazing. i am aware constantly that he loves me. but what it means to treasure god. i could use some work there.

Accepted Just As You Are

dont really have insecurites like that. i know i am accepted by god. mor over i am what i was created to be. i dont worry about being accepted because i know i am walking in the creation specifically designed for me. but to tell the lovliest of all wmen that its ok if she cant find me and to stay among her neighbors. thats what ive been wanting to say but my heart is having a hard time accepting that. especially when my other translation is saying that she will be led to him.

Make The Most Of Your Youth

it feels like missing what you can no longer do.saying enjoy it while you can and that i might share that with you. i sometimes feel old. i eat early sometimes. wake up with muscle aches. stiff. not as flexible as ive been. cant go as far without sleep anymore. but i do feel young too. not always on my own but by peoples encouragement. their, "youre young you can do it" it reminds my muscles i am young. wake up. even in my mind i am still young. not completely familiar with wisdom. i like to look young. but my long hair and scruff to me at least makes me look older. i can still see life in my skin. that it will heal. my eyes soft. as far as making the most of my youth. that isnt so important. thats kinda like enjoy yourself and what you can do now. but getting older doesnt cahnge that. sure i may not be as mobile but thats not what matters. i will still be capable to move in response to gods call. and i will make my youthfull mistakes and employ those learned lessons. it is a blessing to live on both sides of it. the wisdom becomes real. and teh stories and memories my own. god will provide interest and entertainment. most youthfull passions will dissolve. and god will keep me in new ways.
"for youth and vigor are meaningless"
ecclesiastes 12:13
micah 6:8

God Encounters

god it is weeks like this (weeks i teach) that these devotional encounters are eclipsed by the studying and speaking encounters. and what a blessing it is that you give me people to minister to and words to speak. your words god. thank you for your word. and the word became flesh. say thank ya. the temple, god, me, i am a temple. purposed that i may seek you and reach out for you. for your holy spirit to inhabit my body that is a temple to your name. how blessed am i that you would live in me forever.
pleasure...god it was a pleasure to spend time with you. to be in your word. to ask what you would speak, "for this purpose you are here..." to make known your plan for the temple. god that has been the pleasure. pursueing hannah...well has not been pleasurable. it has down right sucked. and i try to not think about her...and i fail! o say im sick of it! im done. but why does my head and heart still drift that way? it makes me feek pain, heartache, it makes me annoyed, it frustrates my focus. and i dont like it. i dont want to feel it anymore. i would rather be in my previous state of no relational desires. guide me in your faith. comfort my heart. be my desire!
whats the point? am i chasing her that my flesh would be fed and not my soul? its split. evenly? i dont know. god you created this sort of relationship that completes a man. 2 souls that become 1. a helper. a bride/bridegroom. whats the point! did you promise a spouse for all? is jesus it? not even completely out of selfish desire i say no. you created man and woman. a set they fit together. make whole. but you complete us too lord. so whats the point?!
this pain, it scrapes my heart. not in a healing way, leastbnot that i know of. it just hurts, that what i think i want seems unatainable and dangling in front of me on a string so that its pulled away as i reach. and i cannot find this place, feast or funeral to learn about her. this is what its coming down to. im trying to hand it over to you. my desire. my heart. my faith. i know you are good to me. im trying to let go. just take it already! rip it out of my hands, my head, my heart. your will god. your path. your plan. set me upon it that i may travel it. im tired of hurting. i dont want to walk the path of pain any longer. give me rest in the valleys of your kingdom. cause me to lay down near your streams. lift me up on your wings that i may know your glory and sing its praises.
but whatever you bring into my path, whatever i do god, may i praise your name. help me to lead a life worthy of bearing your name. may you be pleased in your servants life.
god you are the third strand to strengthen the bond between us. whoever us may be. and its not a bad thing that u may be just wrapped up in you. but god i cant do it alone and you have created me for relationship with others. may i seek those out and encourage and strengthen the bonds you connect me to.
so thank you god for meeting with me. for speaking to me and through me. and for hearing me. you dont have to listen. you are god. and i know not. so may i be your chosen and you my god. i take comfort in that god. you will live among me forever. so why should i worry. i got all i need in you. say thank ya.

Don't Go It Alone

i cant do this seriously. im being immature. two in a bed warm each other. i get the spiritual meaning. im just giggling. i cant pull myself together. cant be serious. i get it though. god has created us to be helpers and helped. and himself to be the strength. to keep us together.

Do All To The Glory Of God

the passage does not communicate to gods glory. it reads as a selfish piece. do what you want. make the most of it. no word of doing it for god. it does say god takes pleasure in your pleasure but i dont think thats right. sometimes i am pleased in sin, is god? no! and these questions are bad. in what ways does god seize? drink? relish? its not proper. doesnt make too much sense. but to answer god takes pleasure in his creations praise. god would enjoy advancing the kingdom as i do. i need to seize the kingdom. to drink god.
go i need to enjoy you more. and enjoy with you.
even reading the chapter i dont like the attitude. life is meaningless. whatever your gonna do enjoy it cause you dont know when youre gonna die and then theres nothing for you. in death there IS life. and to those who love god it will be richer and fuller than our mortal lives.

Pain

you can definitely learn a lot at a funeral. but more than at a feast, i dont know. lets see a funeral has a point and purpose. a feast is full of many going ons and can be distracting. you are more likely to learn a more general thing at a feast.
trying to remember extreme sorrow. not sure if ive felt that or not. as far as learning something out of it i dont think i would have. im not too open to recieveing anything when im upset. is crying better than laughing? better for what? sometimes i laugh so much i cry. its and odd interpretation but yeah crying kinda scrapes things away while laughter doesnt.