The Mystery Of A Mighty God

i can only throw myself on the judges mercy.
here i am. what can i say? you know me and you know my heart. all i can do is throw myself on your mercy. so here i am god. at your feet.
speak out the bitterness of my soul. not that i have any right now but good or bad, god wants to talk to me. and i need to express myself to him. happy or mad. i can only throw myself on the judges mercy.

Giving Comfort

when he corrects me? what was i doing wrong?!!! mp, this wasnt correction or discipline. but you heal. and youre right. he will deliver me. yeah i think it would be hard to hear cause he doesnt know gods purpose in this so when hes speaking like he does it just reminds me of the hurt. but then im listening and i hear his heart and then i hear what hes really saying and it is comforting.
oh man job...what do i say to him? im afraid. what if what i say hurts him more. so nervous what cane i say. i have no idea what that all feels like. i dont know how to help. god! thats it. this is the god we know and he loves job. and he is god to job. yeah. now im excited to speak to him.
i dont think telling the truth is enough. it may not even be necessary. a comforter is just helpful in that. comfort. saying what needs to be heard. being loving. caring. that is whats important about a comforter. their heart. i think job needed a kick from eliphaz. not a hug. not im sorry. but hey! you are still here and god is still god. and he will be your god. i think job needed to be directed to seeing god for what he is. love.
hope is in thier heart. hope that they will have a turn for the better. hope that they wil get through it. love and hope that they will be picked up from those dumps.
peace
job 5:27

God Encounters

god again just thank you for a great week and your awesome provision. you knew what i needed not too much and not too little. but you really blessed me so much. when i sought out understanding you gave it. you gave me perspective on your relationship with people during the old testament. and what our relationship means. and stirred up passion in me for you. you gave an example that i may trust in your timing and purposes. you showed me the benefits of keeping my focus on you instead of trivial matters. showed me purim and and how cool of an idea it seems. and that when your justice dealt, thats it. your anger cooled, discussion over. and starting into job...how else could i respond than how i did, honestly. but truly god if it isnt as i think then help me to be there. to have understanding and love in your taking and giving. and of coarse all the amazing stuff you showed me through preparing to teach. and thank you so much for using me. such a blessing its been and it was by your blessing only. and your living word still amazes me. that you would use the same words you spoke through me, use a diffrent vessal and speak something different for me to hear. thank you for that encouragement and call to obedience. as you have done may it be with me. and 9 weeks god. wow! im so amazed and blessed especially as youre whispering to me the hundreds of weeks still tom come. bring it on god. much love.

God Gives, God Takes

i wouldnt say god was bartering with satan with jobs like. he said hey, did you see my buddy job. i know him and his heart and he is a good man. what? you doubt he loves me, you may try to prove that. for me to say those words and really mean it all of my value would have to be in god. cause i can say that but only mean it so much right now. i do understand to a limit. but i think somewhere (probably not far) down the road of losing everything i would stop praising god. for the most part it aint no deal for me to lose something. comcis for example. sure i liked them. but i am not blessed to afford them and im ok with that. i would like to get them but hey its nothing. the lord gives, the lord takes. good took my comic money and gave me money to buy a car. if god took something from me without explanation i think i would be fine. ive been working on trusting god and hes blessed me through that. it wouldnt be all smiles but i think my progress would be: why did you take that? im sure you have a reason and a blessing so what is it? no...okay i trust you god. and then ide keep looking for what god is doing for me. yep i think i would be ok and trusting if god took something away from me.

Justice Served

an enemy. an adversary.
and that kings hot anger cooled. this is meaningful because i see it as gods justice served, the sacrifice made for me, and he is pleased to have me. he is calling me to leave my wine. not sure what that is yet.
days of joy and feasting. giving presents of food to each other and gifts to the poor.

Preoccupations

his preoccupations blinded him. through that we can see that he just wants to be important. he is concerned with only making a better name for himself. the past 24 hours i have been preoccupied with thoughts of a girl, wanting to sleep, and fears of inadequecy. what does that say about me? that ive had a hard day! its all circumstantial. but thats the point of this. that if my concerns were for god i wouldnt be in this boat. i would like to be preoccupied with serving god. i want that to be my focus righ tnow. (especially now!) "set your minds on things above" yes god let that be my concern. let that defend me against these attacks. help me to find me where you want me.

Just Such A Time

i think esthers fear is acceptable. and mordecais persistence too. she knows what she has to do but its a very bold thing to do. of coarse shed be afraid. and mordecai encourages her. we need to have people in our life like that. to say yes its hard but youve got to do it. and this is your purpose right now.