Confidence In God

moonstroke? thats just...silly. cant really make that fit into this exercise. thats ok. because i do trust god, a lot. i trust with so much but sometimes i doubt him wven though im trusting. so help me to grow to not doubt. because i know i shouldnt yet i still get trapped.
yeah or just laughing with me about getting moonstroke. it is ridiculous. gods just having a laugh with me.

The Gift Of Scripture

i believe gods message is a living word. it holds value of knowledge of the past and wisdom for us today. john 1:1 sums it up. but i have a hard time wit it. most times its boring and i dont understand it. thats because i try and read it like a book. but when i spend time in the word and study god speaks volumes to me. its just hard to sit myslef down to read with the attitude of intent to hear god speak. i could value gods word more by remembering it. by keeping scripture in my heart (i do) and the address in my head (hard!) that portrays value that i would still have it even without a physical copy. and its beneficial. so ill chalenge myself to memorize a verse as i get back into your word.
such a blessing you are god, you gave me 3! psalm 119:11-13 "i have hidden your word in my heart that i might not sin against you. praise be to you, o lord; teach me your decress. with my lips i recount all the laws that come from your mouth." such fitting verses god you are so good. through your strength may i bless your name by obeying and recounting your word.

God Encounters

praise the lord. thats what i come back to after checking these out. just ways to give you praise. my life. my conversations. my service. just living to bless god. and it was a good week to learn this. through your word and circumstance. god i was so blessed this week to be able to serve cookie, to bless brandon, to speak your words, to talk with adam, to love on nick. god you are so good and i give you praise. you calmed my anxiety and you moved this morning. i praise you god.

Spiritual History Lessons

because hes good.
god im just pumped for tomorrow. slightly worried that ill fail but i know toy are good. and you are good to me! you gave me this opportunity and desire to grab it so its not like it will be bad. if i fail it is to your glory and goodness. i really feel that you led me here cause i wanted to do chapter 23 but you spoke our in a different area. and just your goodness amazes me that youve given me a practice run at presenting this and im excited for it. i pray that just you work, that you open our mouths, hearts, and minds. i dont want drones. we are not drones! and i do feel that you are for me. thank you for being for me.
you calmed my anxiety
praise the lord
what if i declared that after everything?

Blessing God

god im just eager to praise you. none of the verses stood out why i just want to praise. one reason god is that i got to talk with adam today. and yesterday you and i were talking about how to get out your message and praise you and it was just like that. it was really cool to openly talk about you and think and praise you and give you the praise and honor you deserve. so yeah. just excited that i can praise you.
praise the lord, oh my soul. ptl.

When The Rocks Cry Out

we can get gods message out in our praise by, get this praising him. profound right? but im talking about praising god. wherever. whenever. (not you shakira!) not just at church our in our groups but in our lives. if we were at the store and youre talking with someone dont be afraid or ashamed if conversation turns to god and priase. im not saying make a scene. no thats not exactly right. if we are are to love and praise god with our lives we need to do just that. unashamed. not worrying what the passerbys might hear and think. its not hard to imagine that god likes it wehn his people celebrate. in fact he has told us to in some occasions. if were happy why wouldnt god like us expressing that? thats what i thought. god partys with us anyway. right now i coudl celebrate gods guidance and purposes. it comes to mind because as ive prayed for opportunites hes blessed me with them. right now that is covering first service this week.

I'll Worship You Undivided

didnt really notice anything. my mind was concerned for the posture i had. up or down. when do i change? how many times do i do this? but one thing was on my knees i paused to look up when i read "look me in the eyes and show kindness" "and they dont care a thing about you" just pondering what this refers to in its resonance in me. give consideration to different possiblities. do not weigh them but look at them and my heart will know. i dont think that my body hindered me even though i was distracted. because i usually get distracted somehow so that wasnt really different. did it help me? i can see how it could have been amazing if i was expressing the passage in my words and for real. not reading. like if i were to come to god while something was against me and i knelt at his feet praising his love, asking for blessing and deliverance. but since i was reading i could really explore the posture or immerse myself in this role.
i really like this psalm (86)

The Posture Of Gratitude

i am choosing not to include the list of things i am thankful for simple because im being lazy and dont want to type it all.
your name is near.
of coarse im thankful of gods complete control. it is that comfort and faith that i am in gods hands. the same hands responsible for shaping the world. because when i dont know why things are happening he does. and it is for a good purpose, gods. i dont have to know why but i know god loves me and that is why things work the way they do.
i thank you god for your name is love. my friends talk about your good works. you say i give in my time and righteous judgment. when things seem hard i uphold you. rest in that. to the wicked do not disrespect heaven and speak as if you are entitled. no one can make someone holy. but god can. in the lords han are empty possessions that he gives and the wicked obsess over them. but i will praise god forever. the wicked i will withhold, but the righteous will be lifted up.

Can't Get Enough

i do want to have this strong desire for you. yes i have slackened some and i want to have greater passion for your name. to seek after you. to thirst for you. to want you. to look forward to you. but why? why do i wan such passion for you? because some times this feels forced, and habitual. thats not what i want. to want to spend time with you because i should. i want to spend time with you because i want to. i want to hear you. i want to speak to you. i want to hang. i want a relationship with you.
because youve always stood up for me, im free to run and play.

God Encounters

sovereign lord, you are good and worthy of all my praise. i thank you so much for your provision and abundant love. you have made divine appointments and i say thank ya to helping me keep them. getting my hair cut by amber was really cool. that was you taking care of me so i didnt have to talk to a complete stranger. and that we got to talk about you. that was even cooler. sharing my faith and exhibiting your love. and this deal with rebekah. forgive me for being an idiot and thank you for helping us to "resolve" my issues and i pray that we may (me especially) continue to walk in your truth and love and not allow the enemy any space to even whisper any lies. god you are so good to bless me with amazing friends to care for me so much. thank you for helping me tet to where i need to be. may i continue to seek after you and opportunies to encounter you. thank you for loving me, hearing me, healing me, blesssing me, loving me.

Solid Rock Under My Feet

god right now no amount of words could express my gratitude for you. for being my rock. you are more solid than any rock. you can not be broken, or ground down. no polishing could cause your love to shine more. no river could sweep you downstream. and my faith is in your word (yes this rock can talk) that as i live my life upon you, you will uphold me through anything. you will not allow harm to come to me. only what will strengthen me. i could not fall away from you. wherever i may find myself you are with me. so may i continue to stand with you and thank you that our of your love you are being god right now. your active involvement in my life is such a blessing, encouragement, and welcome nudge. opportunity to serve. people to talk to. making me thinkg about mom and grandma and grandpa. opprtunity for healing and understanding. i walk boldly with the faith and knowledge that out of your love will bring victory and praise to your name through these trials. lets rock.

God, Pay Them Back!

dont they know. dont they know that there is a truth and what they have isnt it. dont they know how it will end, turn out. theres so many options that all prove each false. why cant people see that. one has stood the test of time. and prophesy. and history. it shines as the only proof and why cant so many people understand that.
why do i know my desires are fruitless and proven wrong and still fetch after them. if they have that knowledge or understanding or desire why dont they embrace it. or why dont they turn to it instead of the other things they are filling the voids in their life with. but they are seeking. and they are trying. and i am working on it. though we seek after lies and want fruitless satisfaction we know it ALL comes down to god. faced with that absolute how do we carry on. in failure. in triumph. in connection to the spirit. in the presence of your name. it is you. it is you. god, you are the mark we set our aim upon. may we (i) allow you to guide our (my) path to make it known.

Soak Out My Sins

we make a bigger deal out of them cause thats what satan wants us to believe. that our sin is greater than we think it is and that gods love isnt enough for it. that god will not love or forgive and we are lost to sin. but we love god and he loves us. my faith is in the once and for all sacrifice made for me personally that my sins are forgiven and god wil love me.
even after i have sinned god my desire is you. put in me a pure heart and renew strong spirit in me. you do not cast me out. what you ask is broken, humbled, and eager yearning. so god let me open my lips to declare you praise. sinners will turn back yo you and your love will still be upon us. thank you god for washing my sins away.

A Safe Place To Hide

i dont really know that that means. to feel safe. i dont think i ever feel safe. or unsafe. but i guess maybe its when i feel most comfortable. when i just dont have cares or worries and i just feel ok. i can disstinctly remember having no cares, good times when i would hang out with karl or rachel. i think its because we just understood eachother so much. and felt free to be ourselves. we would just be. and things just felt fine. even when rachel and i were attacked by a bat, cause nothing was really ok then.
im really annoyed bu the words in this passage. its just an awkward translation that doesnt nescessarily make me feel safe or secure. i think its repeated because he is praising god for who he is and how he is for us. if i took time out and stepped away from everything to look at god, wait isnt that what im doing. yeah my life would look like i was seeking aftrer god and admiring him.
wow this is a horrible translation.