Lured Into Ambush

it realtes because there is someone that does make preparations and looks for ways to ambush me. im tempted by curiosity. by what i dont know and therefor think im missing something. and i think i just want to see, or know without concern for how it will affect me. i know it would be right to be more involved with me mom but i dont. i drag my feet sometimes in walking and preparing for studying gods word and proclaiming it to the students.
god this is who i am. or is it? or am i? maybe that was the old dusty and satan wants me to think that since the new dusty may act the same i still am the same. i am not. i am a new creation. one that shares a body with jesus. so god, that is my human nature. but i am different and filled with the holy spirit to overcome my shortcomings.

Keep Watch Over Your Heart

well, duh!
i need to keep a vigilant heart.
keeping watch over my heart would look like me being careful about what i expose myself to. it would be spotting things that would not benefit me and not allowing them into my eyes, ears, and thoughts.
its just like an echo of what you were speaking to me last week. be careful of what i let shepherd me. and allow you to be my good shepherd. even this passage echoed that you will lead me in wisdom and on good paths. help me to keep strength to stay with you on your paths.

Worth Far More Than Money

it might look like sundays, but all the time. looking for someone thats speaking, listening, looking for you and your word, hearing it would look like...just looking for you wherever. you cant put a price on wisdom. so is it better than a big salary? not really comparable like that but it is defintely more beneficail. wisdom might not be accepted by everywhere but it is of higher value to god. the only place we should be concerned with accpetance.
wisdom will save you from the ways of wicked mne. god i could never be satisfied wisdom. you always have more so continue to bless me with it i pray.

God Encounters

god its been a tough week. through these times it seemed like we just werent connecting. we had our times but i think i was just being distracting. unwilling to press into you. but god i was blessed by your love and how you spoke to me. about knowing your words in my heart, being confident that you are god and that means you are all goodness, spending time on your word and really letting it set in. and praising you for being god (to everyone) and the word you gave me to share this morning with the students. thank you for that goodness that it was your word and that you spoke. i wasnt too confident in myself but holding out that you would mover. and you came through for your names sake and i praise you for that. and god im so excited that youve begun speaking to me about kingdom quest. may we continue to talk about that. and just prepare me for camp first. god i want to do so much but help me to walk in your time and in your faith. thank you for being my good shepherd.

Praise Him, Sun And Moon

i just see him as god. no different. not any more pronounced. just god on high and everything praising him. i praise him. he treats me no different, with abounding love. he is god and that is enough, i praise you for that god.

No One Is Left Out

i usually just dont think like that. either i know some ones a christian or if i dont know its cause i just never thought about them like that before. sometimes for whatever reason ill think of someone and hope that are a believer and pray for them. but i never considered mark until last sunday when we briefly talked about it. i generally see the hockey commmunity as non believers and for the most part it ends there. sometiems i want to be an example to tehm and other times i just dont have any thoughts. we just are. but yes god is all goodness to all of them. whether they accept it or not god is for them. even the ones i think are horrible people. the piece that sticks out to me is god sticks by all who love him. just like last week if i fail god is with me and glorified because of it.

Chewing On The Cud

i just feel peaceful. calm. i dont think its cause im tired. its just i realized some stuff tonight and its pretty cool. im just happy to be where i am. because its out of gods goodness that i have things so good even though i dont always see it like that. but being open. myself. i really saw who i am and it was pretty aweseom. god you are just so good. and god i think i know what you want me to do with what youve given me. give me the strength god to bring honor and praise to your name. give me your wisdom to know and proclaim your word. and give me eyes to see your kingdom as i quest for it. i praise you god. you are good. thank you. much love

My Sould Is A Baby Content

yes, i am content in the presence of god and resting in him. thank you for complicating that.