A Strong God

he punishes the leviathan so that its thrashing as it lives and then he kills it. he waters the vine and watches over it. and pulls up any weeks to get rid of them. he offers safety for the vine. i dont see myself in this other than calling(?) to god. not for safety but for life. i feel confident that god will be that for me.
god you have seemed angry to me..that one time but since you havent been angry. upset but not angry. but you have always been caring. and i get it. i understand why you would feel so. i would be ok even if you were angry with me. i deserve that. but but because you care about me you dont give me what i deserve and i say thank ya big big.
my god is mighty to save. that means strong and tender. brutal to the enemies and loving to me.because that is what is required to save someone. im not shocked by it. it is just a comforting reminder that god is there for me to take refuge in.