Thinking That Horses Can Help

we are a stiff necked people. we strive to do everything on our own and certainly we would not turn to god for help. do we believe he can? yes. do we think he can? no. do we even think about god? no. we look to him last because we set our eyes away from him. we get caught up looking at our trouble instead of our savior. and we doubt. doubt that god can save us from our circumstance. that he wil. that if we call upon his name he will answer. its not a matter of understanding sovereignty for surely we never could. its a matter of accepting it. its hard enough to ask for help but then we have to accept it...if i lived every moment in complete surrender to god i would probably be in a scarier circumstance. but that fear is calmed in gods arms that are around me. god will take care of me. but thats scarier than everything else. because i could not imagine or comprehend how he will pull it off. but he will. its teh unknown. thats what prevents us from looking to god for help. because we think we know how to help ourselves but when it turns out we dont know., god knows. but i dont know what he knows and thats hard...ive tried everything i can think of now its gods turn, but what will he think of? eep!