A Tree Replanted In Eden

the strength of tree comes from its roots. our strength comes from our roots. if we root ourselves in gods word he will make us strong and grow. sin saloon, dead-end road, and smart-mouth college. where are these places in my life that i need to avoid? i dont think theres really places but rather choices. like if i choose to just sin sin sin and not care or follow paths that arent leading me to god, or to not carry respect on my tongue. i think its more of the way i need to live my life than where i live it. if i was bearing fresh fruit every month i think it would look like this. not different fruit every month but just fresh supplies. being able to continue to walk with god. and sure some new things may blossom but its more of keeping my strength up.
god i pray that you guide me so i will always be in blossom and bearing fruit. i pray that my roots may go deep and find their place in the healthy soils of your word.

God Can Handle You

god you like honesty. not just that i live honest but being honest with you. i like it. if im mad and i tell you i am and why you like that. because yeah thats better than speaking foolishly about things i dont know. so rather i can talk to you about what i do know. god of coarse you can handle me and its not like youll be stunned by what i tell you. and i do truly believe that you desire a true and honest intimate relationship.

Creation Movie

my favorite part is bringing water to the unvisited fields and deserts no one ever lays eyes on. i actually dont think i can pick a favorite part of this because when i think about whats happening i get excited but what i want to see isnt there. but its still a very cool passage. and my reason for choosing the unvisited and unseen is the answer to the next question. i am more fascinated by gods planning then his subdueing. that god has purpose for everything and measurements for it all and timing just excites me. god knows what he is doing and he does it with tender affection. his plans are for everyone and everything and they are whole and complete. god as a lightning launcher again excites me. i like to watch lightning! and that power that is god sending it forth carving his creation is proof of his active role of tending to us and the earth. i would want a front row seat to the creation of the stars. to see each one, hear its name, know where it will shine and for how long. and what other stars it will join with to form amazing constellations. and to hear the stars sing! to sing praise with the stras in their creation. except front row i might burn up but jk thats my brain freaking out about this. gods response to me...he had me in mind! he knew what i would admire and he did something just for me. i am a part of his creation and received his great loving attention. and he continues to creat me.
oh just reading this romantice makes me happy. nature, waether, skys, haha im being a hippy. but god yes its exciting to see your passion for your works and you have a full comprehension of how you did it all. no amount of science could ever discover all of your ways. my hope is you. show me your ways

God Encounters

thank you god for this week and these times. you spoke to me a lot. about comfort and comforting. and thats cool. a like that. and you even gave me a chance to be that comforter and i dont know how i fared. thats just a hard situation. but i still would like that chance to visit. to make it more real and to have that hug to give. and also talking as a reminder to talk to you. and to be real. and that you have your ways just and in your time. silence doesnt mean anything. so god i pray that you continue to stir up in me and bless me with your words this week.

Gods Silence

sure ive felt like gods been "inaccessible" but that doesnt stand out to me here. nor am i shocked or irritated by gods silence. because while i can try to embrace all the fury, fear, and confusion job exhibits, it cant change the way my mind processes it. just like when im personally upset with god and he does nothing. im not shocked. my brain tells me im not the first person to go through that. my limited knowledge of history tells me how quite god can be. especially during tragedy. so quite that when his son bears sin he cant speal or grunt. all he does is shut his eyes so he doesnt see it. when perfection is rendered not there is no shame, there is no joy, god just sits quitely. so how could i expect that myself or job am more important that god will always speak his words when we need to hear them. gods silence is not bad. it is not good. it is god and i can accept that. i dont want to tell god how to be god. say what i want to hear. give what i want. take what i need. i will sometimes feel anguish and pain, but god will always be love.

Thirsting For Justice

i guess it touches me cause i dont want that to happen to katie. it actually makes me sad to think that happened. what is gods heart like for that situation, i dont know. he coudlnt be happy, i mean one of his beloveds baby was just taken. yet he still loves the snatcher. its so complicated. he wants everyone to be loved, no to have love. my heart doesnt really respond to that verse so much as it does the commentary. did god create humans to be autonomous? no. we are nothing without god. he created us to have a relationship with him and to live with and through him. yes god may be hidden sometimes but it is not so that we can live without him. he will bring justive to his peoples and his time is his and right. what is it to ask you for people to be treated with fairness, goodness, and kindness. if it could you would do it. and you do. i do not have understanding of your ways but you do not have to explain to me. i trust that you as god treat your people with love. and that is always fair, good, and kind. not always as i perceive but as you love. so then god my prayer is that you be god to everyone. treat us with your love.

Empty Comfort

of coarse i dotn want to receive someones comfort when its one of those christian cliches. because its not console. its not even common sense. its the i know know how to help you response. the im not gonna try. but yeah definitely silence and a hug. for someone to say yeah i dont know but i do care for you. i think thats better. and these guys arent even trying to comfort. they just say accept it. give up. you were wrong. and they didnt even notice in all the time they knew job the life he led. and yeah pretty sure everyone i interact with suffers one of those capacities. sometimes i find appropriate ways to comfort them. its just a matter of knowing them. and i dont know how to take care of everyone and thats ok. its not always my place. but i can always pray and tell them so. they know i care and will do what i can.

Talking Transparently With God

still i know that god lives. its a statement of praise and i want to keep it in mind. whether good or bad day i still know god (lives). i know that you live and i want to know that you live. what its like to talk to god throughout the days circumstances? i dont know. i shouldnt mock this. it is a basic lesson according to the book. and i agree. but yeah i like talking to god throughout my day. giving praise or asking for stuff or telling him im mad. just you know, living with go.