Noticing The Needy

to have understanding. to see, not ignore them. treat them fairly

Word To The Wise

proverbs 28:13 and 26
to confess my sins and renounce them and to not look to myself for help but the wisdom of others. you cant save yourself. i cant help myself. help me oh god. help me to resist temptations and walk in your freedom. to gain wisdom and use it.

Widom With Feet On It

fear god is the one that god ahs been leading me in. respect, revere, love, live. it connects to me to allow myself to be led by god and to obey his calls.
i had a hard tiem doing the wise thing because it was against the desire of my flesh. it was hard to be selfless instead of selfish. but it was so good. many were blessed where there was no gaurentee of blessssing if i acted selfishly. and god i think you that you impart your strength when i request. your strength that does not struggles to do teh right and wise.

a representation of mysyself as wise....
(insert picture)
gray hair, long teeth, awesome beard. things that represent wisdom



so the picture i drew pretty much looked like a dog but you cant see it!!!!

Dollars And Cents

i havent really purchased anything in the past week. i ate some food and bought a pack of backwoods. nothing practical. just comfort and pleasurable spending. the food seemed wise because it was time spent connecting with family. the cigars though wasnt really. just trying to calm mich down and enjoy something myself. i dont feel any guilt or frustration. i feel good about the way money was spent.
23:20 those who drink too much. there is a degree?

Wait For God

"an impulsive vow is a trap; later you'll wish you could get out of it." iw ould think this stands out because i can be very impulsive, especailly with money. and i think what i waste. but i remeber agreeing to something on teh spot and then being told to wait and pray about it and when i did god showed me that i woudlnt have been able to fulfill the commitment. it makes me think of being responsible. and you cant just rush in to large commitments.
god i just feel conscious of using my credit cards to fulfill me material desires. my argument is it would help my credit whcih im trying to build and make me happy. but can i really afford such things? even paying it out over time? my bils are already enough to occupy my money so why add to that? i just need to really think and seek you in how to spend money and what will be beneficial. like i didnt really care much about this passage but i was exploring it and myslef to connect to you. i have been giving it thought and have pretty much just been in a draw. i dont mind but ti did make me realize that i should just seek you. so god in my future considerations help me to seek your wisdom and advice.
proverbs 20:1 being led astray by them is not wise...but just aprtaking/ enjoying a little isnt leading astray...is it? certainly it is giving it a chance.

Week Off

so heres what happened, 106 straight days of purposed and led devotions. and then it was almost time for camp. i didnt know how i was going to do this and well i dont take time to think and prepare. teusday it thought that i would be able to do this before i slept under the moon. i had time during the day but put it off. and then night time came and so did the rains. i was really stressed and grumpy and without light. so i didnt do the devo. wednesday i thought hmm maybe i will later and maybe ill just not. well i didnt. i was busy but thats not different from normal life. and then camp actually started. i dont think i would have been able to do devos if i tried. so tired so busy. coming out of camp i was so tired and so broken. i barely made it to church sunday night which i only wanted to so i could just be in gods presence and it was so awesome. he gave me rest and helaing with family stuff. i would not have been able to do devotion though. prety much cried all service and held myself together at in n out because i hadnt really eaten all day. cried the way home and somehow made ithome before i fell asleep. but it was such an amazing night that i was just full of peace and love. monday i made it to chico still kinda messy but i god was good to me. i pulled out my stuff to do devotions and then i thought to myself if i wait 1 more day it will be a aweek off and ill pick up and be on the same schedule i was on before. so i prayed and told god thats what i was going to do. so after 106 conitinuos days i pretty much stopped. and felt attacked non stop. whether it was good or bad i dont care. but the devil was speaking lies to me that i failed and shouldnt start again and blah blah. and the truth is i never made any commitment to this. i said it will be what it will be. and it turned into something awesome. total blessing. i dont think now that i failed because god spoke to me so much at camp and in those days and i sought and relied on him so much. so it was different but i think it was just what i needed. so i resumed the solo devotions and it was so refreshing that first time. and then...ive been up and down since. habit, obligation, really wanting to. im at 8 days now and i dont know why i keep track. it was such a big deal for me before but its not a way to measure spirituality or realtionship with god. i pray everyday and live with my savior. so by doing daily devotions i am encouraged and blessed but its not the basis of my faith. i think devotions are important and amazing. but i need to stop thinking in terms of accomplishment and pride. god i am here to seek you. let that be my purpose

Humility

i think the only one that hasnt described me is hding behind my wealth. not because i dont really have it but because i tend to not think of it as mine or that it can protect me. i have what i have give freely out of that. i would like to be always learning. i would like to have ahealthy spirit to conquer adversity. my fears aboiut being humble are funny. im afraid that i wont get to be me and live my life. it is silly but i get attacked that if its not me but god then when will i get to do waht i want and what makes me happy. living in gods name though is just that. its what i enjoy and want to do.
what can you do when the spirit is crushed? that is just hard true. and being safe in gods name. these just hit me as teh good and bad.
i thnk ive been trying to answer without listening about k.q. i keep saying i need to listen but so far i havent and i keep trying to jump ahead to it. and god im searching. trying to listen wherever i can. i need you god because i could not be confident in 1st service or even want to do k.q. without you. god help me to know your strength that carries. its your words, vision, projects that i want to do and it cant be without you. i need to be constant and devoted. thankd you for opening your amrs to me.

God Encounters

so yeah i wasnt being to watchful of my words today but thakn you god that dalton was there to call me out. he was your voice reminding me to be nice and purposeful love. though i was joking the new students could have been confused and thought i was a jerk and really i do care for them. so god prepare them for me. and as always these times connect so much with life. you shepherding me and helping me to examine myslef and my actions. and through it all youre proving your wisdom. thank you so much for blessing me with your wisdom. help me to have a vigialnt heart and no be lured into ambush. god may i value you above all else. and thank you for speaking to me tonigh tabout k.q. lets get together some more and figure it out. and god prepare me for camp. let me be empty of myself and full of you to pour out. good night. amen

The Importance Of Words

i dont think ive been very sarcastic today. i was a little to pat ans less to amber. i dont really remember encouraging anyone. i did talk to jeremiah and i think that would count as uplifting. i think mostly today was just full of idle chat.
and yes god help me to think before i speak.

Wisdom On Your Doorstep

no cattle, no crops; a good harvest requires a strong ox for the plow.
im shocked that the book has just what i feel in it! i have been lazy. and the verse about working to get somewhere is what is standing out. i need to be active at least a little in prep/prayer for k.q. i know i need to focus on camp for now but i still need to be at least prayerful . because it is looking like it can be a lot of work and i want to put in the time. god i dont want to be lazy with the vision youve given me. i want to be your hands and voice and i need you for that. being me to you. so that i may be a fine vessel overflowing with your love and word. god you are inviting me to seek after you and your kingdom and that is so fitting because thats what you gave me as the vision for k.q. may i have my life as and example for this experiance.

Self-Examination

this seems like one that weve been through a few times. but god may you always continue to bring light to new areas. we know areas i am weak and strong. help me to mature and stand firm in them god. and reveal new aspects to me. something i can grow in and something i can be encouraged of.
"he who conceals his hatred has lying lips" so much of this has to do with wisdom. and i mean duh its proverbs. but this verse just stands out and i dont really know why. i think its a good truth just kinda hard to process. because im not supposed to have hatred , yet its ok to discuss what i dont like or whats bothering me. i think youre just stressing communication. that i can process more with you. i dont want to liew and i dont want to hide. so god help me to be purposeful, respectful, and voacal with life and issues.