God Encounters

ummm this was like a few weeks ago and i was gonna write about why i didnt do it this day. i cant remember why now. i mean generally lifes been kinda weird but im trying to remember why it was on july 12th. lets see. work has sucked real bad recently and its like killing my soul when im there and it just negatively affects me when im there so i know that spun my attitude in a bad way. i think it was 3 straight weeks of leading first service (then i had camp off and right back onto the night before notice this week so thats really like 4 straight weeks and im up again this week) so im guessing that was a long sunday and the night services have been kinda weird for me. and then we hang out and i try to get home early enough to at least sleep a little cause mondays ive been working early. maybe i just wanted to sleep instead of devo? and then stuff with my mom (healing) and the funeral that may have been that week i dont remember. that all threw me for a loop though. and then the crush thing has eaten at my attention too. so i dunno exactly why i didnt devo. i probably felt justified but i know i wasnt. ive been trying to do 2 a days to get caugh tup cause camp flipped me too. i think ive just felt so exhausted and i made a bad choice to skip devos on these reflective nights. so i dunno lifes life and i fail sometimes. thats that