My Holy Name

i most certainly am not repelled by god. why would i be. he is telling the israelites to honor him as they should. to not desecrate the sacrifice with their uncleanliness. this passage however doesnt particularly draw me closer to god. it just makes sense. he says if you approach him in a state of uncleanliness you will be cut off from his presance. this makes sense. it is god. however this sint how we approach god nowadays. i have recieved my slavation. jesus blood has been poured over me. i can approach god because of that. he doesnt see my uncleanliness (sin) he sees jesus blood. the atonement. god what does this show me about myself? where are my opinions and feelings based? sure its a simple thing to walk in, even without understanding. but you have spoken to me about it. about messyness. about the new man. and about your love. if i seek after you will you withdraw? certainly you would not. i approach you in the faith and spirit of your son and his transformation in me.
god what is this neutrality of my response to it. the truth is you are god. the truth is you are holy and i am not. the truth is that only in your mercy i have recieved life. let me be excited in that.
if a man marries his half sister its ok? unless they have sexual relations and then they are only cut off? all others in this regard are killed. why not these two? god over and over again you say "i am the lord, who makes you holy" maye i not just know that but exist that. you are god and by your grace i may be holy. you have made me holy. nothing else. you are god and you are holy.