False Hopes?

yeah she had wanted a son but accepted that she would not have one. so when shes told she will it shakes her so much. and then he dies and such tragedy she feels! she was blessed for her faith and then this. elijahs response is great. he doesnt think he is lost. his heart goes out for her and has the faith that she will have her son again. and he makes sure of that. he does so much. i think god was purposing this just to bless again. watching her struggle had to be hard. because she should know that god wouldnt remove his blessing for just no reason. and there should have been faith that he would be ok. but we are human and thats how god made us to respond in that situation. but she knows that there is hope. she goes for the holy man. she wants god to intervene. she still has hope. and god would be delighted with that.
i hold back my desire for healing because im afraid to go through it all. to suffer the rebreaks so that everything can be healed right and set properly. and i do want to trust more in gods healing and goodness. im working on having more and real hope. i do trust, just not actively. and i would be blessed if i did. i would be over it. i would be better. i pray with the faith which i need to continue. but i need t live it better. as if there were absolutely no negatives assosciated with it. god help me. amen.