An Absalom Moment

i think im tempted to steal everyones hearts when josh is around. im sure theres more recent but i can only remember standing with mic just trying to find any comment or joke that would be more entertaining than josh on the other mic. what is the root of this temptation. i want to be liked. i want attention. i want to be adored. part of it is i dont think its right that josh can just show up whenever and...well just be josh. its almost like he has no committment and just pops in for an ego boost. but i know thats not it. thats the lie. why am i jealous of that attention when i get some of it all the time. but i shouldnt want or get that attention for myself. i want to turn that to god. for students to be excited when god shows up. thats how i can avoid that. is to remember its all for god.