Talking With God

god listened. manoah asked questions. manoah and his wife listened. would i have asked his name or another question? how could i say. theres more to it than that though. i mean. they know it is the angel of the lord yet they are still testing it. i dont think i would be asking his name as they did (are you god). but i migh thave asked his name to say____ appeared to us and spoke on gods behalf. to know my friends name. i cant think of any questin i would ask though. as for talking to god face down...they werent. as the angel ascended they fell face down. he didnt show himself again. they "realized" it was the angel of the lord and talked to each other. they put their faces in the ground because of the fear/beliefe that if they saw the glroy of the lord they would die. no to talk. they may have been expecting an answer but i dont think they were. they had already gotten it.
whats it like to talk to god in this position? not comfortable. not practical. not necessary. it migh tbe meant as an humbling posture but its not. how is it humble to bury your face in the ground to seek my god and savior. its mostly foolish. i dont have to do that to talk to god so why would i? god has invited us into his presence as we are. and so we come. and we become better. surely my face in the ground is not an improvement. now i may put my face to the ground in worship or reverance but not to talk. a servane may say i humble myself before you and do so. but they will not talk in such a position.
god i dont think your allowing this argument so that i will lie here on my face. because im trying to pray. trying to ask for your spirit here. your love and peace. but my attention is divided between discomfort and the argument. in fact god im upset and angry that your letting this happen. why cant you end it already. whatever end you have for them. why havent you brought them there yet. why, when all this is happening is more hurt for everyone and just ruining lives. or days. whatever. either way i cant see you in this. its nothing but the enemy. stealing joy. breaking up family. robbing childhood. fueling unlove amongst us. setting bad examples. but god i want you here. in this house, in these rooms, in our hearts, in our lives, in our mouths, in uor actions, in our tones. god we need you! god i so want you here. come now!
ok manoah didnt know it was the angel of the lord. but they should have trusted instead of tested. they should have known. but such is the human condition.