A Different Story

"honor your words" "as you asked" god makes promises and agreements to men and he keeps them. caleb had a different spirit (then the rest of the israelites) follows god wholeheartedly. gods sovereignty impresses me. that he holds all together, knows its workings, and orchestrates so much. and for the good and glory of his name. constantly showing me your countrol keeps me passionated for you. caleb followed god wholeheartedly. entirely. whats so impressive about that? gods words says he followed him wholeheartedly. completely. passionately. solely. no holding back. god was it for caleb. and to have god recognize that and tell us. thats amazing. god has always been willing to forgive anyone. he wasnt doubting the israelites ability to be used. becuase he was using them. in the wilderness and through all their failures.
i find myself in this passage, as a different spirit. from what i was and who you are making me. how would you call me to live this different story. youve called me into this ministry and to do it different. from the communion to the ways we speak your word. to take those risks and fears of failure, looking lame, not reaching anyone, not having good teachings, not being accepted for how i do, and to walk in your spirit with the faith that YOU WILL BE GLORIFIED. my different story is a different walk in the ministry. not bad, not better, but different. ministry yes, but different. god i do have the faith and trust in youto take the next steps. i am still practicing this everyday. to hear you. yo respond to you. and to aboey you. buying the devotionals. blessing friends. daily encountering you here. getting rid of the game. sharing these with people and you. god i do feel excluded because of my difference. my youth. my attitdue. my way of walking with you. it doesnt matter. im included in your heart, your plans, your salvation, your work, and that is enough for me!