Humility

i think the only one that hasnt described me is hding behind my wealth. not because i dont really have it but because i tend to not think of it as mine or that it can protect me. i have what i have give freely out of that. i would like to be always learning. i would like to have ahealthy spirit to conquer adversity. my fears aboiut being humble are funny. im afraid that i wont get to be me and live my life. it is silly but i get attacked that if its not me but god then when will i get to do waht i want and what makes me happy. living in gods name though is just that. its what i enjoy and want to do.
what can you do when the spirit is crushed? that is just hard true. and being safe in gods name. these just hit me as teh good and bad.
i thnk ive been trying to answer without listening about k.q. i keep saying i need to listen but so far i havent and i keep trying to jump ahead to it. and god im searching. trying to listen wherever i can. i need you god because i could not be confident in 1st service or even want to do k.q. without you. god help me to know your strength that carries. its your words, vision, projects that i want to do and it cant be without you. i need to be constant and devoted. thankd you for opening your amrs to me.