Open Arms

i dont fear that god will snub me. i know that he wouldnt. i have refused grace before. ive told god i dont want that right now. leave me like this (hurt, dirty, ashamed) i dont really know why i did. i mean i felt like just staying how i was and just rolling in it instead of overcoming it. i thought it made sense but it really didnt. and of coarse since i live in new testament times ive always known gods hands were outstretched and welcoming me back. i sadly have taken advantage that but thats the battle. what i find strange about this passage is gods open arms. its the time of king hezekiah and god i swelcoming back those who turned from him. i mean yeahs its what i know to be solid about god but for these times its different. jesus made teh way for me to come back to god. in the o.t. there wasnt that way. and it was almost certain damnation. yet god replaced his anger with love. and that seems so big to me for the time.